A Letter to Zachary II

You were all but sitting in my living room. After a conversation with The Chair this morning, I was feeling particularly rooted and affirmed. That should have been clue #1. I told her something was coming I told her I could taste it in the air. She laughed, but she heard me. I couldn't put my finger on it exactly. Then a series of numbers in an article I was reading jumped out at me. They were seemingly insignificant at first glance but after adding them up and reducing to a single digit I got 5. I stopped what I was doing and googled numerology, determined to understand what this number meant and why it was revealing itself to me so frequently. I read, "5 symbolizes curiosity, freedom and change, and represents the five senses of humanity. 5 is the pivotal point between the numbers 1 to 9. The 5 represents a variety of experiences through its developed senses, and offers many opportunities for decisions for the future. There is constant activity and curiosity about life for the 5 vibration." I sat with it with some inklings of what it may mean but ultimately remaining curious(er) and curious(er).

It was then that I decided to figure out my life path number. After quick adding and double checking, showing all my work--I say this to note how carefully I still do math. It was a practice born out of a need to fully understand all the working parts of math. Very much opposite of me, in general--and i came to this. I am master number 11. It said, "The 11 symbolizes the potential to push the limitations of the human experience into the stratosphere of the highest spiritual perception; the link between the mortal and the immortal; between man and spirit; between darkness and light; ignorance and enlightenment. This is the ultimate symbolic power of the 11." My first thought after reading it? "I knew I was the Avatar!" It also reminded me of my recent journey for balance of my masculine and feminine and my writings of being a portal or a conductor. I felt affirmed. Affirmed and also coy, this was nothing I didn't know about myself. The next thought drifted back to The Chair.

In our meeting earlier, she remarked on my capacity for the unknown and intuitive guidance; even going so far as to suggest I teach people how to sit in discomfort. "How do you teach that?!" I asked her. "You'll figure it out," was her response. Challenge accepted. Except...

Then tonight I get a call from Dr. Estrada asking me to teach Human Development this semester. Through a series of unfortunate events the course was open for me, the universe made space. I'd been asking you for the development masters class. I'd been thinking about your gift of the time turner (hour glass) and when that time would present itself. As I said in the beginning, you were all but sitting in my living room tonight.

I feel strongly these few things: 1. The universe is conspiring on my behalf. 2. This is an opportunity, in both the obvious way and in a way I cannot put my finger on yet.

The Chair reminded me of my process. I trust. I sit and I wait for things to unfold. I wait for a feeling, I wait for clarity, I wait for quiet. "Ignore the noise," she advised. I thanked her for the role she plays in my life. I reminded her I would not be here without her and our very relationship is due to an act of supreme spiritual faith.

I think energetically, she knew. She knew this offer to teach would come. She knew I would choose to accept it. She knew I would juggle my schedule around and she knows that everything will unfold as it should. I know it too.