Swan Song

I want to worry less.I want to wake up every morning giving thanks. I want to take time to listen to God. I want to tell myself a different story about myself. --I am open. --I am trusting. --I welcome intimacy. --I value the pruning process. --I am patient. --I love fully. --I do not fear ends, for they are beginnings in disguise. I want to embrace all that I am, talents flaws and everything in between. I want to dress for confidence not compliments. I want to live in accordance with purpose not popularity. I want to ebb my craving for instant gratification. I want a partner to be a witness to my life as I bear witness to theirs. I want peace; so that my heart hums harmoniously with my hands. I want to cry freely when tears need escaping. I want my skin to become hot with anger. I want to kiss passionately. I want to make love under an endless blanket of glittering midnight. I want to take care of my family. I want to allow my family to take care of themselves. I want to be strong. I want to fall apart. I want to see the world and taste it's flavors. I want to birth a child and watch her grow. I want a home filled with memories comfort and good food. I want to get laugh lines and throw my head back once a day. I want to hold hands. I want to share blankets. I want to write books filled with words and tears on the pages. I want to dance this life so that with my last breath I can whisper, "It was perfect."